My artistic practice is an inquiry into meaning making as a strategy for working with grief. Meaning making takes many forms so in this case it's my way of creating art out of my experiences and research. I focus on genealogy, religion, metaphysics, creative writing, research, and identify.
My current project working title “Maine/350 years” is a long-term digital photography and creative writing project on the history of the Tourtillott family. This project started with me wanting to overcome loneliness, longing, and a desire for kinship. I buried my mother, grandmother, and daughter by the age of twenty-three and found myself longing for direction. By deep diving into genealogy and using that in combination with art I've been able to give myself direction. Direction toward awareness, clarity, healing.
My photographic process is about documenting the place and the feelings I have while in a place., then printing the images, then analyzing those images through writing. These feelings can come from research, meditation, the place itself and the people. Then I use those images to write poems and story's that reflect the research, the images, the emotions.
My process is heavily research based, and I use many other forms of art to find my way through a project. My research areas are of course Genealogy but also death studies, grief studies, self-help, spiritualism, and religion. I also use doubling, word maps, charts, graphs, and painting in exploration of my identity, my path, my mission.
I have worked in several different processes over the years spanning cyanotypes, film, camera-less, and digital. I do sometimes switch because I’m looking for a process that best aligns with the topic,and the emotions.